What rapture? I’m still here …
You may recall that this blog ended on the day the world was predicted to either end, or humanity would be propelled into a more conscious evolution — that is, on December 21, 2012 — my 45th birthday as well as the end of the Mayan long count calendar. I spent the Winter Solstice of 2012 near the Atlantis Energy Vortex on the tiny tropical island of Bimini as my finale to a manic six months of travel.
My search for Life Purpose was officially over.
Today is the Summer Solstice, and despite this blog’s long silence most of us are still here six months after it was all supposed to end.
So what has happened these past months? If you recall, I was having a rather high maintenance melt-down over the fact of turning forty-five, and was absolutely determined that I would find my elusive “Life Purpose” by 12/21/12 … at the LATEST.
So now that this deadline has truly come and gone, am I any closer?
Yes and no.
The thing is, these past six months haven’t been all that different from the six months this blog was active. We still travel (though not as frequently), I still struggle with finishing my writing projects, I still lose my cool with Hubby at least once a week, and I still (occasionally) beat myself up for no longer practicing law. But a few things have changed:
- I completed an Improv class (which was scary as hell, and also taught me my Purpose is clearly NOT to ever be a stand-up comedian);
- I’ve actually been riding horses every week, rather than trying to learn my purpose from them;
- I’ve expanded my writing network to include lots of other creative types to help offset the more materialistic influence of my OC girlfriends;
- I have (accidentally) become a certified Reiki Master Teacher (not my purpose either … but perhaps a good story for another day); and
- Gratitude has become a daily meditative practice for me.
The thing is, it’s taken me awhile, but:
I NO LONGER BELIEVE IN LIFE PURPOSE.
I’m not saying that life is meaningless — not at all. But rather than drive myself crazy for the rest of my life trying to discover that “one great thing” I am destined to do, I’m taking it day by day. The weird mosaic that is resulting is unlike anything I would have predicted – it’s messy, non-logical, seldom clearly profitable, and I’m really too close to it to see the entire picture anyway.
I bet it’s the same for you.
The journey is the purpose. And yes, we do have some good trips planned for the rest of this year. The question is, do I need to blog about my life in order to fully live it? Clearly the answer to that question is NO, but:
Do YOU have any interest in following my future travels?
If so, I would love to hear from you. I am toying with the idea of launching a new blog or travel website, but in order to do that, I need a subscriber base. If you haven’t already done so, please fill in your email in that little box at the top of this page.
No SPAM. Promise. (OK, I might sell your email address for a few K. Yeah, right. Who do you think you are, anyway?)
Seriously, at least leave a comment. ANY comment. Okay, I’m begging. Not cool. Sorry. But you can bitch about it in your comment, if you want.
PS – I must confess the real reason I’m blogging today is that it has really been bugging me I only wrote 32 posts in 2012. Everything else in my life is a double digit; this brings the total posts to 33. Stupid, right? Tell me that in your comments …