Time is running out until 12/21/12, and I’m forcing myself to face some pretty large issues I’ve been in denial about for a very long time. The truth is, things just aren’t working the way they used to.
I want a divorce.
But not from my husband. I hate to admit this, but I think it’s high time to divorce …
I wish I meant this figuratively, but I’m afraid it’s literal this time. You see, back in 2008 at one of the many personal development seminars I got caught up in, we all participated in a wedding ceremony where we actually married ourselves. Of course this event was no different from most — 99% of the participants were single women looking to find themselves. I suppose that’s why no one bothered to ask me if I objected to polygamy. (Hubby was raised Mormon, so I guess he had this coming.)
But I’m tired of me.
And I want a divorce. Today is Thanksgiving, and as I reflect on all of my many blessings I wonder what is truly going on in the personal development world. Why all the constant striving to be, do, and have more? Can’t we just be happy with and truly appreciate what we already have?
As Joan Ocean writes in Dolphin Connection, “So often we no longer see the planet’s beauty … the absence of gratitude in our world results in the demise of our planet. Expressing heartfelt gratitude is one of our intrinsic purposes, a sacred responsibility.” Speaking of which, I am extremely grateful to be where I am today, surrounded by beauty near my in-laws’ home in Rancho Mirage:
We even enjoyed smoked salmon and mimosas on the golf course this morning:
Life is good.
So why do I keep striving for more? I’ve even committed to attending a workshop in Hollywood next month called Orgasmic Wealth. (Ok, that’s not the real name, but it’s awfully close. Just don’t want to defame anyone here.) It’s one of those self-actualized woman things. You know the pitch: just use your feminine powers and the Law of Attraction. Relax, learn to receive, delegate more, work less, and the money will magically flow into your life. Rock your purpose. Change the world.
As long as you pay $50,000 for a high vibrational mentor to “coach” you. (Non-refundable. Because of course if you fail, this is your fault.)
(Shoot, there’s that pesky sarcasm again ...)
According to Debbie Lachusa we’ve become a culture of success addicts, and narcissism rates are exploding about as fast as the obesity epidemic. Just look at FakeBook and the proliferation of self-absorbed blogs like this one.
ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME.
Even typing that last line felt icky.
So I’m off to spend time with others. My family. And I hope you are appreciating yours. Yes, I’ll be back to blog about my travels soon, and maybe even give you the inside scoop on the orgasmic wealth event, but today I would really rather hear about YOU.
What are doing today to celebrate Thanksgiving? And what are you grateful for? Do you ever feel like I do, that you just want to relax and stop trying to improve everything all the time?